Revolution of Love

Revolution of Love

Do small things with great love.

Online Daybook (5/19/14) and Currently and Answer Me This Mash-up

Moments of Gratitude…

Today I am especially thankful for

  • Family time.
  • Quiet time with Brian.
  • Spring walks.
  • Seeing the light at the end of a huge laundry tunnel.
  • A tax return that paid for a new desktop computer because the old one finally bit the dust.
  • Little boys that are playing (relatively) quiet so I can blog. 😉

 

Beauty in the Ordinary…

You’ll see a lot of ice plants in these coastal areas and our backyard is in full bloom with their flowers.

 

In the Kitchen…

M – Turkey burgers, coleslaw and veggies

T – Pork Roast, brown rice, broccoli

W – Soup and tuna salad sandwiches (We have a school function that evening so quickie dinner.)

Th –  Grilled Chicken and All Hail Kale Salad

F – Breakfast dinner

S – Leftovers

S – Dinner at Oma and Opa’s

 

Praying…

  • For Brian’s chemo and continued recovery from cancer.
  • For all those who are fighting cancer and other illnesses.
  • For my brother-in-law who left home for training before being deployed to Afghanistan.
  • For my sister, his newlywed bride, that she is given the strength and courage to endure the separation.
  • For all our military, especially those we’ve adopted.
  • For the military wives and family left behind.
  • For peace throughout the world and in the hearts of mankind.
  • For all those who suffer abuse or are victims of crime, especially the kidnapped Nigerian girls and particular Na’omi Bitrus, the girl I chose to keep in prayer.

 

On the homefront……

Today starts Brian’s off week of chemo. He is officially half way done with treatment. Yay! He starts round four on Tuesday. Since the doc adjusted his meds, this third round was not as difficult as the second. He’s hanging in there. Thanks for the continued prayers! 🙂 We had such a lovely weekend together and I made sure we spent time as a family and that Brian had time with me while the kids were at the in-laws. It’s so wonderful to see him smiling and happy.

 

Pondering…

My prayer life. During Lent it was going really well. I was spending time each day in meditative prayer with God and it was helping with my attitude and keeping the family in harmony. Frankly, after Easter and going on our spring vacation, it was like I also took a vacation from my prayer routine. All those lessons I was learning in the Restore workshop were falling to the wayside. I could feel the negative effect of it – it gets much harder to be at peace amidst the chaos when I am going at it alone. I need to keep on top of my prayer routine. It doesn’t take away the trials of the day but it helps greatly in keeping me focused on God so I can take care of Brian and the kids and keep a peaceful atmosphere at home.

Time in prayer with God is key but I also know that taking care of myself, having alone time to recharge and having time alone with Brian for us to reconnect is also vital. I was talking to Brian about this yesterday and told him I am going to work on getting back on track and reinstall the disciplines that were helping us. First on the agenda – a schedule change so I get some prayer time in the morning; Second – Confession for a good soul scrubbing and a boost of grace; Third – schedule a date this weekend with Brian. After all, we’re better and happier parents when we keep our love and friendship alive and growing. 🙂

 

Around the house…

You’ll find a new computer in our front room since our old one was hanging by a thread. Thankfully, I learned from my previous mistakes and back upped all my docs, photos and videos on an external drive so I wouldn’t lose them. As I was looking through some old folders, I found a bunch of old videos I took of the boys when they were all babies and toddlers. The boys spend almost an hour watching  through them and giggling at their cuteness. Why does time have to go by so incredibly fast? Sigh.

 

Reading…

Same as last week.

Something Other Than God: How I Passionately Sought Happiness and Accidentally Found It.

The Little Oratory: A Beginner’s Guide to Praying in the Home

The Fault in Our Stars

 

Listening to…

h/t creative minority report.com

This Frozen’s Let It Go – Mom Parody. It’s hilarious.

 

Watching…

Mr. Selfridge Season 2, Grimm, The Middle, Hallmark’s Signed, Sealed and Delivered past seasons of Veronica Mars and Big Bang Theory. (Bazinga!) 😉

 

On the blog…

I’m finishing up a post with an update on my Menu Board and a post listing all the weekly link-ups available to Catholic bloggers. Sometimes it takes a link up to get us motivated to write and post on a regular basis. 😉 I’ll also continue on the Restore series.

 

In the blogosphere…

Yesterday I meant to link up with Kendra / Haley for Answer Me This but I never got around to it so I’ll answer the questions here instead.

1. What’s the scariest thing that’s ever been in your yard?

Hmmm… the only thing that comes to mind is when Brian and I were living in a rental when Bella was our only child. Outiode our front door there was a wasp nest and every time we got near it the wasps got angry. We had to go around the side and enter our home from the rear until we could get the landlord to take care of it.

2. Beards. Thumbs up or thumbs down?

I would say I’m thumbs up 75% of the time. There are a few faces I’ve seen that actually look better clean shaven. I grew up with my dad having a beard and a number of my 5 brothers having beards at various times so it seems natural to me. I relished when Brian came home for the hospital after his surgery in January and had a beard. He let me enjoy it for a few weeks before shaving it off.

3. If stuff breaks, can you fix it?

Depends on what it is. If someone gets a hole in their stiffed animal or loses a button, then Brian is the one to fix it. If something electrical breaks down – computer, TV, ipod, then I’m the one to get it running again. Anything requiring hammer and nails or tools is a toss up. But fixing a car? Hopeless.

4. What was your first car?

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It looked something like this only I think the curves were a little chubbier and rounder. (Kinda like me. ;-))

My first car was a white Chevrolet Prizm. I was spending the weekend with girl friends and when my parents came to pick me up they had this new shiny, white car. I thought it was a rental. They took the money I was saving for a used smaller car and helped me with the down payment on this car instead. I was ECSTATIC. I remember that every night I would go out in the garage and sit in it and smell the new car smell for a few minutes before going to bed. LOL. I know there is a photo is of me sitting in the car on the day my parents delivered it but I can’t find it. Do you have it, mom?

5. How often do you eat out?

Nothing like we used to! There were times when we’d eat out 3 times a week. Now that we eat healthier it is more likely to be once every 2-3 weeks. Our treat it a burrito bowl at Chipotles. Yum!

6. Why is your hair like that?

Because every now and then God likes to play a mean joke. 😉

I have thick, dry, unruly, curly hair. I have been able to tame it using these products. These days, I keep it shoulder length so I can wear it down for special occasions but 99% of the time I have it up and off my neck with a scarf/bandana.

 

Pinned…

My timer is almost up so here is a screen shot of my latest pics. Get the links here – pinterest.com/rol_bobbi/pins/

 

Plans for the Week…

On Wednesday Bella is participating in her first school musical. They are doing Peter Pan Jr and she plays one of the Indians. I am not sure if we are doing anything special for Memorial Day but I’ll see if my father-in-law can babysit the kids so Brian and I can go out on a lunch date before he starts his 4th round of chemo.

 

Captured…

I never posted the photos from Mother’s Day so here are a few shots I captured.

John-Paul’s preschool had a Mothers’ Day tea. 🙂

John-Paul in his class.

Matthew. He starts preschool here next year. He can’t wait. 🙂

A quick snap.

 All my treasured homemade gifts from the kids.

 

 

Linking-Up with…

Jenny at The Littlest Way

A Mama Collective’s Currently

Answer Me This

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Online Daybook (4/21/14): Easter, Family & Carrying Crosses

He is Risen! He is risen Indeed! I wish you and your loved ones a very blessed Easter season! I set aside blogging for Holy Week but I am back today with my Online Daybook.

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Moments of Gratitude…

Today I am especially thankful for

  • Making it through Lent and for the first time feeling like I made a little spiritual progress.
  • The joy of Easter.
  • The giggles of the kids.
  • The deliciousness of chocolate.
  • Time with family.

 

Beauty in the Ordinary…

Bubbles on a spring day.

In the Kitchen…

M – Leftovers from Easter dinner.

T – Chicken Meatball and Tortellini Soup

W – Breakfast dinner – Pancakes

Th – Roasted chicken, brown rice and veggies

F – Leftovers

S – (Road trip to So Cal) Dinner at my mom and dad’s (woohoo!)

S – Dinner at my brother’s place. (Double woohoo!)

 

Praying…

  • For Brian’s chemo and continued recovery from cancer.
  • For all those who are fighting cancer and other illnesses.
  • For all the pregnant mamas as well as those who are suffering from infertility or miscarriage.
  • For those who entered into the Church this Easter.
  • For the renewed faith of cradle Catholics.
  • For those who are far from God and most in need of his mercy.
  • For some special intentions.

 

On the homefront……

On the 16th, Brian and I celebrated the anniversary of our first date/first meeting face to face. It feel like it was just yesterday and not 15 years ago! I still remember how nervous I was. We met online though AMSCOL and had been emailing and talking on the phone for 4 1/2 months and I was almost certain he was the man I was going to marry even though I hadn’t even laid eyes on him yet. My last reservations melted away once we were together. Everything clicked. I knew I would love him for the rest of my life.

Fast forward eight months from that first date and I was vowing before God to love Brian for better and for worse, in sickness and in health. Well, my chance to love him in sickness is here. I knew Brian wouldn’t be able to go on a real date for our anniversary so I planned a little after hours date and made a special dessert for us to share after the kids went to bed. However, Brian was feeling really tired and in a lot of pain from the chemo so he went to go take a nap after dinner. The first week after his first chemo treatment was tough for him but, in his words, this second cycle was 100x worse than the first. Brian didn’t just take a nap after dinner. He was out for the rest of the night. Like a mom with a newborn baby, a few times I checked on him to make sure he was still breathing since he has never slept that long. So I didn’t get to celebrate with him but at least he was alive and fighting for us.

I know many of you are praying for us – I can feel the grace keeping me upright. It’s hard at times. The following day Brian came home from work (he tries to put in a few hours each day in order to keep our insurance) and I could see how tired he was and that his whole body was aching. I told him to go to bed and get some rest and I had my father -in-law come over and babysit the kids so I could keep a dentist appointment that I had. I couldn’t help but chuckle at the fact that going to the dentist and getting my teeth cleaned was like having a mini spa day but I’ll take what I can get.

When I came home I made dinner. Brian ate a little then went back to bed. As I cleaned up the dishes and put in another load of laundry and got the kids ready for bed and wiped behinds I couldn’t help but feel resentful. Not of Brian, but of the cancer. It feel like it is stealing my husband and stealing our life together. I hate it. I hate seeing Brian like this. I hate feeling helpless. I hate feeling hateful. I hadn’t cried in awhile but that night I let the tears fall. It helped.

On Easter morning, there was joy in the Risen Lord but also pain that we are still carrying our cross. It was a weird sensation. But we are hanging in there. I’m hoping that this next week will ease up a bit for Brian and he can catch his breath. He is having a couple of “red flags” in his side effects so he has to talk to the doctor and check and make sure his dosage doesn’t need to be lowered. Next week Brian has an “off” week without chemo and we are praying that he feels better so he can join me and the kids for our road trip to see my family.

 

Pondering…

In that same train of thought, I know that the crosses we carry are meant to be our road to salvation. If we allow it, our crosses can draw us closer to God and bring us deeper into his love. So I keep thinking, what is God trying to teach me? How do I, as a wife, fight and hate this cancer yet embrace it as the cross I am to carry right now. I have a long way to go but I think it has already drawn me to a less superficial faith in God. I have to dig deep to trust in God. I have to go deeper in my prayer life. I can’t just rattle off a few prayers to check it off a list. I need to truly connect with God or I am a raving lunatic the whole day.

When I was a kid my mom used to love listening to John Michael Talbot, who now looks like Gandolf but still has a lovely voice. Since I’ve been married I have gotten in the habit of playing his music during Lent since it put me in a quiet and prayerful mood. On Good Friday I was listening to his album Come to the Quiet and his song Psalm 62 brought tears to my eyes. It is exactly what I am clinging to right now.

1 [For the choirmaster . . . Jeduthun Psalm Of David] In God alone there is rest for my soul, from him comes my safety;

2 he alone is my rock, my safety, my stronghold so that I stand unshaken.

3 How much longer will you set on a victim, all together, intent on murder, like a rampart already leaning over, a wall already damaged?

4 Trickery is their only plan, deception their only pleasure, with lies on their lips they pronounce a blessing, with a curse in their hearts.Pause

5 Rest in God alone, my soul! He is the source of my hope.

6 He alone is my rock, my safety, my stronghold, so that I stand unwavering.

7 In God is my safety and my glory, the rock of my strength. In God is my refuge;

8 trust in him, you people, at all times. Pour out your hearts to him, God is a refuge for us.

9 Ordinary people are a mere puff of wind, important people a delusion; set both on the scales together, and they are lighter than a puff of wind.

10 Put no trust in extortion, no empty hopes in robbery; however much wealth may multiply, do not set your heart on it.

11 Once God has spoken, twice have I heard this: Strength belongs to God,

12 to you, Lord, faithful love; and you repay everyone as their deeds deserve.

Source – Catholic.org

 

Around the house…

The Easter celebration aftermath that has yet to be cleaned up.

 

Reading…

The same as last time. I’m just about done with both.

The Everyday Catholic’s Guide to the Liturgy of the Hours

Insurgent (Divergent Series)

 

Listening to…

We are on Easter break so I hear A LOT of boy chatter, laughter, yelling and fighting. There is a constant chorus of “No fighting boys” and “Hands to yourself” coming out of my mouth all day long.

 

Watching…

I miss The Walking Dead. Luckily, I forgot I had a rain check from Target sitting in my purse so I redeemed it and picked up the first season on blu ray for only $10. Score. Since we are on Easter break and Brian is in bed early I can stay up and catch up on some shows siting in my DVR forever including The Originals, Mindy Project, Trophy Wife and Revenge. (Revenge was losing me this season but if Emily gets back to her red sharpie I may not cut her off. ) 😉

 

On the blog…

Tomorrow is our Pinterest Party and I’m still not sure what to post about… whole wheat baked chocolate donuts I baked or a new daily planner page I made and will share.

 

In the blogosphere…

Yesterday I meant to link up with Kendra (who is my current fave) for Answer Me This but I never got around to it (Easter and all, you know…) so I’ll answer her questions here instead.

1. What did you and your family wear to Mass on Easter Sunday?

I forgot to take full shots of Brian and myself so a head shot will have to do… picture this with a black skirt (Old Navy) and mary jane heels that were promptly kicked off the moment I got out of Mass. They are super cute but I loathe wearing anything but flats or converse. 😉 I was actually going to wear a pink sweater but Brian requested this same bluish one (Macys) because it is his favorite.  Just when you think they never notice what you wear… 🙂 The pearls used to belong to Brian’s grandma. Brian’s mom gave them to me and one day they will go to Bella. (She likes dressing up as much as I do but we do our duty. LOL.)

Bella was looking pretty in lavender (dress from Target) and the boys all wanted to wear blue. (Pull overs from H&M, plaid shirts form Carters and jeans from Target.)

I don’t know if it is the stereotypical laid back California attitude but we are casual dressers, even on formal occasions. Dressing up means pairing the boys’ jeans and converse with a plaid shirt and pullover. 😉

2. Easter Bunny: thumbs up or thumbs down?

Thumbs up. Our Easter bunny comes while we are at Easter Mass. He hides plastic eggs in our house and the kids find them. If they find all their color coded eggs then they get their Easter basket. When they hunt for eggs at their Oma and Opa’s house they know they (not the Easter Bunny) hid them in their backyard.

3. Do you prefer to celebrate holidays at your own house or at someone else’s house?

I like when family comes over to my house for dinner on “ordinary” days. For the big holidays we keep the morning time for us. Opening presents or Easter baskets, having a mini breakfast feast and lounging the rest of the day. Then we head over to Brian’s family for Easter (or Christmas) dinner. I prefer it that way because the thought of cooking a big meal for everyone stresses me out. Thanksgiving, however, must be spent with my family in So Cal or I’ll cry. LOL.

4. What is your favorite kind of candy?

Oh, that’s a tough one…. it would be a tie between Resses peanut butter cups, snickers, almond joy and peanut M&M’s. Although these days I am trying to stick to dark chocolate covered almonds. when I need a chocolate fix. Both are “health foods,” you know. 😉

5. Do you like video games?

Um…no. Yesterday I downloaded Angry Birds Go the go cart game for the kids and I tried to play it. How come I know how to drive yet I can’t steer a stupid iphone video game?? After crashing four times in a row Andrew picked it up and won on his first try. I give up.

6. Do you speak another language?

I wish I could say Spanish but I only know phrases like “more cheese on my tacos, please” so I don’t think that counts. It’s tough when other Mexican people come up to me and ask me for help in Spanish and I have to tell them I don’t speak Spanish. I’m like an Oreo cookie – dark on the outside but white on the inside. 😉 I’ll have to add “learn more Spanish” on my bucket list.

 

Pinned…

I haven’t had time for Pinterest lately but I did pin these two.

Source

Catholic All Year: Baby Steps to Living the Liturgical Year as a Family

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Tuscan Kale Salad from A Mama Collective

 

 

Plans for the Week…

Source – My sis JC

If all goes well, we will be leaving this week for So Cal for a going away party for my brother -in-law Mick who is being deployed to Afghanistan, a college graduation party for my brother Rob and then heading to Disneyland for a few days. 🙂 If Brian is well, he’ll come with us and then take it easy at my parent’s house or the hotel if he’s not up to DL. If he stays home he can rest in peace and quiet without all of us noisemakers in the house. Either way, I need this trip so I can get a little familia recharge. Nothing like a hug from mom and dad and laughter from my siblings to make me feel energized again. 😉

 

Captured…

Since I had Psalm 62 on my mind…

Okay, it seems like it took me days to finally finish this Daybook so I’m linking it up at all my favorite spots…

Kendra’s Answer Me This

Jenny at The Littlest Way

A Mama Collective’s Currently

Have a great day/evening. 🙂

UPDATE: Brian just got home and he looks a lot better than he did last night. He said he had a bit more energy today and was able to work 6 hours so I’m praying he is on the upswing again. Thanks for keeping us in prayer! xoxo

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Moments of Grace Daybook & Currently (3/30/14): Brian Update, Trusting God, Odds & Ends

I’m linking up my Daybook with Jenny at  Plain Grace and with A Mama Collective.com. Go check them out!

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Moments of Gratitude…

Today I am especially thankful for

  • Gorgeous weekend weather
  • The sounds of giggles.
  • At home date night with Brian.
  • Confession and prayer time alone.
  • Phone calls from my mom.

 

Beauty in the Ordinary…

The color of Lent is blooming everywhere.

 

In the Kitchen…

M – Chicken Quesadillas with Salad

T – Chili Beans & Cornbread

W – Turkey Burgers and  Broccoli Slaw

Th – Leftovers

F – Cauliflower Lentil Taco Salad (This is a new recipe. If it comes out okay, I’ll post it on the next Pinterest Party. If doesn’t turn out, I have tuna as a back up.) ;-))

S – Homemade Veggie Pizza & Greek Salad

S – Crock Pot Balsamic Chicken with brown rice and roasted asparagus. (Another new recipe. I’ll let you know how it goes.)

 

Praying…

  • For Brian’s chemo and continued recovery from cancer.
  • For all those who are fighting cancer and other illnesses.
  • For the women participating in the Restore Workshop, especially those with heavy crosses.
  • For myself, that I never take for granted all the blessings in my life and that I always turn to God first when the going gets tough.
  • For those who are far from God and most in need of his mercy.
  • For some special intentions.

 

At the Cancer Center.

On the homefront……

Since many have been asking how Brian is doing, here’s an update.

[For those of you who are new here, this is some background info. In Dec of 2012 Brian found out that he had colon cancer. He went through surgery and had the cancer removed. A year later he went to his routine testing and found that the cancer returned and spread to 1 1/4 of his lymph nodes. In January 2014, Brian went through surgery again to remove the colon cancer. In February, Brian had a port surgically placed in his chest in prep for chemo. This Monday (3/24/14), Brian started chemo to remove the cancer in his lymph nodes. His schedule is to go in for chemo on Monday then for two weeks he take chemo pills. The third week he has off with no meds. The following Monday he started the cycle all over again. He will do this for six rounds of chemo. He should be done with everything in mid-July.]

The first week of chemo was tough. Brian is still getting used to the side effects and illness. Each person is different but common side effects for the type of chemo he is getting is nausea, numbness in the hands and feet (they have to keep a close eye on that side effect since damage can be long lasting), aversion to cold (for a few days after his port chemo) he can’t eat, drink or touch anything cold and general pain and achiness all over.

On Friday I was really getting worried about him. He was not only hurting but seemed so down. I felt helpless and wished I could take away his pain. He went into work for a few hours and I took a few minutes to say my morning prayer. My thoughts were full of Brian when I opened up my laptop to read the Restore prayer prompts. The thought for the day was timely. It said:

“Jesus did not come to explain away suffering or to remove it. He came to fill it with his presence.” –Paul Claudel

I prayed for Brian that he would be given strength to endure the months ahead. If I can’t take away his pain, I can at least pray for him to get through it. Afterwards I read the “Act” of the day. It said:

“Can you think of a cross your husband is carrying? Even some small chore that is usually his? Carry it with him today. Smile and wink at him, too.”

I couldn’t help but laugh. Who said God doesn’t have a sense of humor. But it did give me an idea of how I could help Brian. I did what I could to make the home a little more comfortable for him. Things like – clearing off his desk area of the piles of folded clothes and Star Wars toys that landed there, wipe down his bathroom (a job he usually did), I made his favorite veggies to go with dinner and took care of his one cleaning pet peeve (an unvacuumed family room.) When he got home I kept the kids quiet (relatively speaking) so he could lay down and rest. It made me feel better just to do something.

On Saturday morning, I woke up and heard the kids talking to Brian in the family room. He let me sleep in as long as I wanted. (Even with cancer, he rocks.) Thankfully, he was feeling a little better and not hurting as much. His doctor said his body would develop a pattern and as time goes by he will know which days will be easier and which days will be tougher and he can adjust his schedule/activities accordingly. I took advantage of his feeling better and rented a movie he wanted to see that night and made a special dessert. (Baked whole wheat chocolate donuts. I’ll post that recipe too!) We had our own date night after the kids went to sleep. (That was part of my “wink”. ;-)) It was great…a little breathe of fresh air after a rough week. So yeah, we are hanging in there and appreciate all your prayers!

 

Around the house…

Legos, Star Wars toys, Legos, Thomas the Train engines, Legos, Disney Cars characters, and did I mention Legos?

 

Reading…

The Everyday Catholic’s Guide to the Liturgy of the Hours

Insurgent (Divergent Series)

 

Listening to…

I heard this song on the radio the other day and it really touched me. When I went to download it on iTunes I was surprised to find out that the artist was Shane Harper who played Spencer on “Good Luck, Charlie.” I don’t know if his new movie God Is Not Dead is any good but I do know I love the song from it. 😉

Here are the lyrics.

“Hold You Up”

When it’s coming apart, you had it all.
It wasn’t enough. No, it’s not enough.
They tell you it’s not worth the price, so just let it go.
But you know you can’t. You know you won’t.

It’s not easy, no.
Finding the words to say.
When you’re feeling lost, you’ll find your way.

The world is so broken and sometimes it leaves you cold.
At nighttimes you can’t feel the fire to guide you home.
The demons will harm you and try to steal what you know.
But the angels, they brought you, and they’re gonna hold you up.
They’re gonna hold you up.

They see the fear in your eyes, heart sinks like a stone.
‘Cause when you’re afraid, it weighs on your soul.

It’s not easy, no.
Finding the words to say.
When you’re feeling lost, you’ll find your way.

The world is so broken and sometimes it leaves you cold.
At nighttimes you can’t feel the fire to guide you home.
The demons will harm you and try to steal what you know.
But the angels, they brought you, and they’re gonna hold you up.
They’re gonna hold you up.
They’re gonna hold you up.
They’re gonna hold you up.

It’s not easy, no.
Finding the words to say.
When you’re feeling lost, you’ll find your way.

The world is so broken and sometimes it leaves you cold.
At nighttimes you can’t feel the fire to guide you home.
The demons will harm you and try to steal what you know.
But the angels, they brought you, and they’re gonna hold you up.
They’re gonna hold you up.
They’re gonna hold you up.
They’re gonna hold you up.

When the timing is right, somehow you’ll know.
When nobody stands, stand on your own.

 

Thinking about…

I love the lyric “The demons will harm you and try to steal what you know. But the angels, they brought you, and they’re gonna hold you up.”

When I am feeling overwhelmed and am stressing out I am tempted to lose it. I can give into my weakness and the negativity in my head and allow the demons to steal what I know – that God is with me. That he is strongest when I am weakest and He can accomplish amazing things. If I am docile in the hands of God and surrender to him in the little things, as well as the big things, He will hold me up and carry me through. That is especially timely these days. 😉

 

Watching…

Saturday we watched the season finale of When Calls the Heart (Aw!) and last night we watched the season finale of The Walking Dead (Ack!). I recorded the premiere of Season 3 of Call the Midwife for later this week along with The Blacklist, Father Brown, Grimm, some Hitchcock movies and some old episodes of Veronica Mars.

 

On the blog…

I have a number of posts in my Draft folder but I’m not sure how much free time I’ll have this week!

 

Posts I’ve Liked on my Bloglovin

 

Pinned…

Source

 

Plans for the Week…

Bella sitting next to me in the car, showing me her painted polka dot nails. 🙂

The usual, although is Brian is feeling okay on Saturday, Bella and I are scheduled for a mom and daughter date to the movies. (Even if it means having to sit through a Muppets movie.) Honestly, my favorite time is when we are driving in the car to and from. I ask her questions about her life and she opens up and shares things with me. I think the simple act of sitting side by side but not facing each other helps her to open up to me more.

 

Captured…

I love how after a rain the sky is a gorgeous blue with big puffy clouds. Here’s the view from our deck yesterday with today’s scripture of the day in the Restore Workshop.

 

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Moments of Grace Daybook & Currently (3/17/14): Staying Positive, Restore & Trusting God’s Plan

I’m linking up my Daybook with Jenny and I am also linking up with a blog I just found – A Mama Collective.com for their Currently Link-up. Go check them out!

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Moments of Gratitude…

Today I am especially thankful for

  • For the dirty dishes in my sink – it means we have plenty of food to eat.
  • For the piles of dirty laundry – it means we have plenty of clothes to wear.
  • For the bathrooms and toilets that need to be scrubbed – it means we have running water.
  • For the beds that need to be made – it mean we have a place to rest our head at night.
  • For the Legos and Star Wars figures… the sketch pads and nail polish bottles scattered around the the house – it means we have three little boys and a tween girl who fill our home with sweet smiles, warm hugs and joyful giggles.
  • For the inconvenience of cooking from scratch and carefully checking ingredient labels  so I am aware of what we put into our bodies – it means my husband is alive and that I can do something to help him beat this cancer.
  • For the grace to let go of the frustration and see the blessings amidst the mess – it means God is working within me.

(I’m trying to be more positive these days. Can you tell?) 😉

DISCLAIMER: After I posted this, the kids got in trouble and I yelled at them so don’t think that it’s all Pollyanna around here. I am a work in (slow) progress. LOL.

 

Beauty in the Ordinary…

Our weather has been weird – in the 70’s one day and the 50’s the next but there are flowers blossoming everywhere!

 

In the Kitchen…

M – Turkey Enchiladas with Green Guacamole (to make it a bit more Irish.) 😉

T – Minestrone Soup and homemade wheat bread.

W – Sneaky Spaghetti Sauce: Pureed zucchini, carrots, celery and peppers.

Th – Chicken, Baked Potato and Veggies.

F – Quesadillas & Low-Fat Broccoli Slaw

S – Homemade Veggie Pizza & Greek Salad

S – Leftovers

 

Praying…

  • For Brian’s continued recovery from cancer and for the chemo treatments that start March 24.*
  • For all those who are fighting cancer and for their families.
  • For all those who have lost loved ones and for the repose of the souls that have died.
  • For those who are alone and feel unloved or contemplating suicide.
  • For the who are spiritual leaders, that God will strengthen them and help them to live humble and unselfish lives.
  • For each of us to be faithful to God and live his love throughout his day.
  • For the conversion of sinners and the souls in purgatory.
  • For some special intentions.

*Originally Brian was supposed to start his chemo on March 10 but it was pushed back because the port they put in his chest wasn’t fully healed yet. So his first round will start this Monday the 24th instead. I’ll keep you posted and I appreciate all the prayers, especially from those of you have have commented and shared your own cancer survival stories!! I shared those with Brian and he asked me to send you a big thanks. The encouragement means a lot!  🙂

 

Pondering…

Last week I shared about my Lenten journey and how I was working on regaining my happiness in daily life. I still struggle to remember to take care of myself – like drinking my water, ugh! – but God must have dumped out buckets of grace to get me started because it seems like there is much more peace in our house. Well, there is still chaos at times but I think I am dealing with it better.

Turning my heart to God throughout the day is helping and spending more time doing things as a family (or at least me and the kids) has helped. When the kids were much younger I longed for the days when they could play by themselves so I could wash dishes or put a load of laundry or even shower. With Matthew almost three, I have much more free time than before but now I have to remember that they still need “play time” with me – to read them a book or take them to the park or blow bubbles outside with them.  I think these little things have made us happier.

Plus I’ve been trying to talk to Brian more. I mean, more than the usual small talk. He is not exactly Mr. Chit Chat so this takes a little work but asking his questions and allowing him to share without me interrupting has been beneficial and made us happier together.

Continuing this theme of finding joy, I decided to join Elizabeth Foss‘ online workshop Restore.

The Restore Workshop is a six week online course geared towards adult women who have struggled or are struggling with or want to avoid burnout. It is for any woman who wants to nurture joy within her life and the lives of those around her.

 

Around the house…

The house is actually straightened up since my in laws came over for dinner last night. Whenever the house gets too messy I just invite people over to ensure I get it cleaned up pronto. 😉

 

Reading…

This morning I was reading this article A former MLS player lost his battle with cancer today, but he won so much more. Elizabeth Foss had the link on her website. (Her son that wrote the article.) The article was beautiful and moved me to tears. Here is an excerpt:

As I sit in the dark, I find myself wondering about the end. Was Shawn right to believe what he believed? Did it “work”? After all that pain and suffering, was faith in something he couldn’t see or even fully comprehend worth it?

The answer to that question is the greatest victory of Shawn Kuykendall’s short life.

I remember sitting on the couch with Shawn on a Saturday morning last November, watching an English Premier League game. Out of seemingly nowhere (though thinking about it now, he had probably been working on this thought for the first 60 minutes of the game), Shawn looked over at me and spoke these words, which I imagine will follow me until my end.

“I’m not really worried about death or dying, I’m not. Because here’s the thing – you know – we’re all dying. I mean, right? We’re all dying. So whether it’s tomorrow or 90 years from now, the end is going to be the same. We’re going to die.”

I hit pause on the DVR at this point because I knew he would want to come back to the game and Liverpool’s buildup play once he finished his thought.

“We are all given this great gift of life and we have this finite time to do whatever we want. So we live the best we can, and for me, that means living the way I think God wants me to live. I need God more than ever now.”

There was a pause as he rubbed his head, once full of dark flowing hair, now bald from the chemo.

So praise be to God. I’m not going to waste time being sad or worried or scared. I have to fight. If I trust in him and fight, everything else will take care of itself.

That is what I am trying to do. Trust. Fight. And know that God has a plan and purpose.

 

Listening to…

The trees rustling as the breeze flows through them… and Matthew “fixing” my chair with his Thor hammer.

 

Watching on my DVR…

When Calls the Heart (I love that show!!),  The Walking Dead (Last night’s episode was insane) and a St. Patrick cartoon to watch with the kids tonight.

 

On the blog…

This week I want to finish my post on Baby Names. I think Kathryn’s link-up is there until Friday.

 

Posts I’ve Liked on my Bloglovin

I have 300 unread posts in my reader. I’ve been a negligent blog reader. Sorry about that, my fellow bloggers.

 

Pinned…

I saw Vani (aka The Food Babe.com) on TV the other day and she as talking a lot about diet and eating whole foods without additive, preservatives and GMO‘s etc. That is what we are trying to do with Brian (and all of us.) I pinned a number of her articles and these recipes are next in line for upcoming Pinterest Parties. 😉

 

Plans for the Week…

Lots of the ordinary stuff plus a movie night on Thursday to see Divergent (woohoo) and it’s the school’s end of the quarter Family Fun Night this week. The kids dress in their pj’s and bring sleeping bags and watch a movie in the gym. This time it’s Frozen so there will be a of of singing too. 😉

 

Captured…

This is my photo from yesterday’s #holylens photo challenge. The theme was “Mercy.”

 

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Moments of Grace Online Daybook (3/2/14) & Project Snapshot Mondays Vol 2

Today is Day 7 of my participation in Jen’s 7 Posts in 7 Days Challenge.

I was originally going to write my LENT 2014 post for today but I didn’t get to finish it so I am posting Monday’s Daybook today instead. (I’ll hopefully have the lent post down by tomorrow.)

I’m linking up my daybook with Jenny and I’m linking up my photo with Pam for  Project Snapshot Mondays. Scroll down to the bottom for that one.

AND


Moments of Gratitude…

Today I am especially thankful for

  • A lovely visit with my mom last week. I’ve been trying to spend more time with family. I miss my parents and siblings and I’m making an effort to get together with them more often!
  • This past month having Brian at home. Although he was recovering, it was a treat spending so much time with him.
  • That Brian is well enough to go back to work tomorrow, at least part time. (Although I am REALLY going to miss having him here with me.)
  • For another 4 day weekend coming up. Hopefully we can plan a family outing before Brian starts his chemo next Monday.
  • For yesterday’s storm that gave us some much needed rain.

 

Beauty in the Ordinary…

The surrounding brown hills are turning a lovely shade of green after the rain and the days are getting longer. Spring is just around the corner. 🙂

 

In the Kitchen…

M – Chicken Cacciatore with Brown Rice

T – Fat Tuesday Treat – Eat Out

W – Tuna Melts & Tomato Soup

Th – Tostadas

F – Vegetarian Chili and Easy Chili Cornbread

S – Homemade Pizza & Greek Salad

S – Leftovers

 

Praying…

  • For Brian’s continued recovery from cancer and for the chemo treatments that start March 10.
  • For all those suffering from illness, addiction and depression.
  • For all those who are pregnant, especially family and friends.
  • For those suffering the cross of infertility and those who have lost a child in miscarriage.
  • For the safety of our deployed military and for their families waiting for them at home.
  • For the conversion of sinners and the souls in purgatory.
  • For some special intentions.

 

Pondering…

I am putting the finishing touches on my Lenten plan. I am thankfulfor the grace to work on it now and not waiting until a couple weeks into Lent. 😉

 

Around the house…

This week I need to clear off my desk area and my dining room table. I have let it slide and want it neat and clean again!

 

Reading…

I completely forgot that I had The Book of Thoth (Vatican Vampire Hunters #2) on my Kindle so I started it last night, although on Wednesday I’ll start my Lenten reads but I’ll save that for another post.

Listening to…

The Academy Awards, specifically the performance of the song “Happy” from Despicable Me.  I’ll admit that I DVR the show  and fast forward a lot of it but there are still parts I enjoy.

 

On my DVR…

When Calls the Heart, Fr Brown Mysteries, The Walking Dead, Blacklist, EWTN’s Grab Your Catechism and the movies Leave Her to Heaven and Shop around the Corner.

 

On the blog…

I actually completed all 7 posts in the 7 day challenge. I couldn’t keep up that pace all the time but it was fun for the week. 🙂 Tomorrow or Tuesday by the latest I’ll have my Lenten Ideas posted.

 

Posts I’ve Liked on my Bloglovin

Pinned…

 

Plans for the Week…

Doc appointments, school functions and a 4 day weekend.

 

Captured…

(I am linking up this photo with Pam for Project Snapshot Mondays.

This weekend I took a little time to handwrite some notes and cards to people. Although I could email or text much faster there is something special about getting an old school letter in the mail. When I was done I was adding a little washi tape to pretty up the envelope and I was admiring the bright colors in my washi box. Note cards, pens, washi, all those little crafty things and stationary brings me a touch of joy.

Thanks to Jen and Pam for hosting! 🙂

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