Revolution of Love

Revolution of Love

Do small things with great love.

Online Daybook – January Days 2015: A Wedding, Awards & Thoughts about Paul Coakley

Moments of Gratitude…

Today I am especially thankful for

  • A last minute breakfast date this morning with Brian.
  • The beginning of longer days and warmer weather.
  • Family and friends, near and far.
  • My father-in-law for taking all four kids to his house for a couple hours on Friday. They love it and I enjoy the weekly down time.
  • A warm home, running water and food on the table.
  • Sweet hugs and precious kisses.

 

Beauty in the Ordinary…

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I’ve been loving Blessed Is She’s photo challenge #projectblessed. Here is one of my favorite shots for the theme “morning glory.” This is what I saw that morning on my walk.

In the Kitchen…

It’s an off dinner week since Brian is working the late shift tonight and will miss dinner. On Thursday he is fasting for his medical tests and Friday he has to eat very light once his tests are over. So mostly clear broth for him and soup and sandwiches for us.

 

Praying…

  • For all those suffering from cancer and other illnesses.
  • For those who have lost loved ones, especially those that died suddenly.
  • For the depressed, lonely and mentally ill.
  • For all the pregnant mamas and those trying to get pregnant.
  • For all those who have asked for our prayers.
  • For the souls in purgatory.
  • For some special intentions.

 

On the homefront……

 cwa_jake_wedJacob and Amanda

Life has slowed down just a tad now that the holidays are over. A couple weeks ago my younger brother Jacob was married to his sweet bride Amanda.

© revolution of love blog - cwa_cake_wedThe wedding cake. Amanda used the wedding figures from her parents’ wedding. So sweet!

The trip to SoCal went surprisingly well and it was a JOY to be reunited with all my family members. I am the oldest of nine and we were all there.  Even my sister in VA was able to fly in with her husband (and their youngest) to attend the wedding.

© revolution of love blog - cwa_sis_wedMy beautiful sisters. It’s funny how Bridgett and Jacinta in the middle look alike while Elena and I on the ends look alike. 🙂

© revolution of love blog - cwa_bros_wedMy handsome brothers.

© revolution of love blog - cwa_mat_wedCan you believe that I FORGOT my big camera?? Well, Matthew told me not to worry. He took shots with his Leapster camera. Aw, a boy after my own heart.

© revolution of love blog - cwa_boys_wedLuckily Amanda’s mom took this great shot of the boys at the wedding. (Thanks, Carol!)

Now that we are back home, it is back to school and I am busy with my room mom activities. (Wait, tell me again why I volunteered for this?) The rest is just life in general.

 

Brian Update…

Brian had to go into work later for an evening meeting so we decided to go out to breakfast.

© revolution of love blog - ba_1_2015I took extra time to get ready and look nice for Brian. Matthew saw me and explained, “Mama! You look so clean and shiny!” It was a nice compliment until I wondered, well, what the heck do I look like the other days?? 😉

Walking hand in hand downtown reminded me of our early years of marriage. I still sometime pinch myself to see if I am really dreaming. How did I deserve such a man.

© revolution of love blog - ba_bv_1_2015Not the best picture because we both kept laughing that I was too short and had a hard time getting in the shot but I like it because it reminds me of how much fun we have together. 🙂

A couple of people have asked me how Brian is doing and if you don’t follow along on Facebook or Instagram, on Friday he goes for his big annual testing for cancer. (He also has bloodwork done quarterly.)  In 2013 is when they first found the cancer. In 2014 is when the cancer came back. We are praying that in 2015 he is cancer free! We truly appreciate all your prayers and messages you leave us. Brian is amazed that so many people are asking and praying. I assure you he is on his knees every day praying for you too. (Me too! I just don’t stay on my knees as ling as I should!)

 

Pondering…

Praying for Brian and knowing that his test is coming up has me a little worried. Part of me is just leaving it all in the hands of God but the other part of me is still a little worried.

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It has especially been hard today (Tuesday, Jan 20) since Paul Coakley died this afternoon. If you don’t know him or haven’t been following along on Facebook, Paul was a young dad and Franciscan University alumni married to Ann. They have three young children and Ann is pregnant with their 4th. (They also have 4 babies in heaven.) It was just a month ago that they found out that Paul had cancer. It was already advanced and Paul fought valiantly but he was called home today.

Through it all Ann’s faith and trust in God has been amazing. In one of her posts she shared that at the end she told Paul, “If God was calling him home we both had to accept that. I would take care of our babies here and he could go play with our four angels in heaven.” That just breaks my heart. I pray I would never have to say that to Brian (or he to me) for many, many years to come.  But if I did, then I pray that I can have the same grace of surrender. Please remember the Coakley family in your prayers. I can’t even imagine what they are going thought right now, especially Ann and the little ones wondering when their Daddy will come back home. (Now, excuse me while I go get a kleenex to wipe the makeup I just cried off.)

Okay, I’ve composed myself and am back at the keyboard. I struggle with situations like these. I can’t help but think, why bother praying for a person’s recovery if God is going to take them away anyway. What use is our prayers? Deep in my heart I know our prayers are valuable and that Paul and the family received much grace – grace of a peaceful death and strength to endure the cross they are bearing. I know that I cannot see all that God sees and the countless lives and souls that Paul’s death has touched. Even now, as I sit hear crying to God, God has taken this opportunity to draw me closer to Him. To remind me that this life is fragile and that we are not our own, but children of God. He knows the bigger picture and the blessings that this particular cross will bring.

Paul sparked that. A man I didn’t know existed a week ago and yet he has touched the lives of all of us in the family as we prayed for him. God knows exactly what miracles that will take place because of Paul’s life and fight at the end. So while, I still struggle with it, I do accept that our prayers are efficacious, but only God knows exactly how. I can only imagine how many more lives Paul will help now that he is united with God. (Okay, I need another kleenex. I should just keep a darn box on my desk.)

UPDATE: Just as I was about to publish this, I saw this beautiful post from Paul’s’ close friend Mary – Did God Answer Our Prayers…

 

Around the house…

Ugh, there are many problem areas!  I just finished putting away the last of the Christmas decor last week. Now I have the spring cleaning bug. (In Cali spring arrives in January.) As I mentioned in my 2015 goal list, I signed up for A Bowl Full of Lemon’s Home Organization 101: 14 Week Challenge. This week I am working on the pantry. (I think my record so far has been finding a food item that expired 5 years ago.)

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UPDATE: I’m actually switching my cleaning challenge. I’ll complete the more intense ABFOL challenge later in spring but for now I am doing the 31 Day to Clean: Having A Martha House the Mary Way hosted by Christian blogger and author Sarah Mae.  God has been putting Mary and Martha into my life left and right! I’ve already started and I must say, it is just what I needed! I’ll blog more about it soon. 🙂

 

Reading…

I know I said that I wasn’t going to buy any more books until I finished the huge stack of books I started last year, but I had to get one more to help me with my Theme of 2015. I lot of people have said it was good but I just started. I’ll post about it as I go along.

book_mary_heart_Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World: Finding Intimacy With God in the Busyness of Life

 

Listening to…

Silence. (This can’t be good. I better check on the kids.)

 

Watching…

Well, you already know I am watching Downton Abbey and commenting on the episodes here but Brian and I just started two new shows.

grantchesterThe first is Grantchester. We only say the first episode but Brian and I both liked it. We are big mystery fans and it reminded us of the Fr. Brown Mysteries only with a cuter clergyman. It stars James Norton (who was also on Death Comes to Pemberley)  as Sydney Chambers, a young clergy man who doesn’t seem like your typical man of the cloth. He enjoys jazz music, drinking whiskey and spending time with a female best friend (whom he secretly loves but she doesn’t return the feelings.) Yet, he also seems introspective, spiritual, has a heart for helping people and is fighting some PTSD from the war.  The first episode has the usual violence with a murder (nothing graphic) and a flashback of a couple having an affair but again, nothing too graphic as long as no kids are in the room. Anyway, if you already saw it, what did you think?

agent_carterThe other show we started watching was one of the Marvel “comic book shows” Agent Carter. I was pleasantly surprised at how much I liked it. I love the 40’s setting and the clothes and hairstyles and ruby red lips and the butt-kicking lady in a skirt and heels was a nice touch too. It was a fun diversion. 🙂

 

On the blog…

In the past two week I posted:

Pinterest Party & Link-up (vol 34): Epiphany Party Add your post. It is open until the end of January!

TV Talk: Downton Abbey, Season 5, Episode 2 Recap

Theme of 2015: Be Still

Goals for 2015 & Mini-Goals for January & February

Downton Abbey, Season 5: Episode 3 Recap

 

In the blogosphere…

It’s that time of year again! Time for Bonnie’s 2015 Sheenazing Awards. Yours truly was nominated for “Best Under Appreciated Blog.” (I have mixed emotions about that title. 😉 )

15 Nominee SA 500If you want to make me feel like a school kid picked first on the soft ball team, go give me a vote! 😉 You can read the full post here or just go straight to the voting page here. (You can skip any categories you are unfamiliar with.)

I am privileged to be nominated. (Thank you, whoever you guys are!)  I know I am just a small blog with a small audience of friends but it’s still nice knowing that others appreciate the work I put into the blog. Ultimately I do it for fun and to connect with other Catholic women and to share my love of Our Lord. There are so many other small bloggers who are touching lives but aren’t as well known. Erica over at Saint Affairs had a great idea to do a link-up cerebrating our favorite lesser-known blogs. She says:

But what about all of the amazing Catholic blogs that didn’t make it onto those lists? Surely you know a few because I know I do. I would love to support all of them, let them know that their words are being read, that they are making a positive difference in the blogosphere, so let’s do a link-up.

Let’s do this!

Blogs That You May Not Be Reading, But You Should Be link-up

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Visit Erica’s post here for more details!

 

Pinned…

I’ve been wanting to organize my books so I can lend them out (after I finally finish reading them.) When I do, I am going to use these Free Printable Library Cards.

pin_lib_cardPhoto credit: clementinecreative.co.za

cwa_pray_trsutMy sister just posted this on Facebook this morning. It seems very appropriate considering the thoughts that have been going through my head lately.

 

Plans for the Week…

Brian’s test, paying, attending a friend’s’ baptism and party, doc, ortho and dentist appts, and numerous school activities, especial during Catholic Schools Week.

And looking ahead, I am making plans to attend the Catholic Women Blogging Network California Conference in April! I am so excited that there is something I can attend on the west coast since I couldn’t make it to Edel this year. Will you be joining me???

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Captured…

© revolution of love blog - cwa_star_wars_1The prompt for the #projectblessed photo challenge was Childhood. I love the signs of childhood around our house. (The toys and Legos on the floor I can do without, but this was cute.) In the scene Darth Vader and Kanan are battling it out for the last remnants of banana bread. 😉

Have a blessed week!! 🙂

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TV Talk: Downton Abbey, Season 5: Episode 3 Recap

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So what did you think of last night’s DA? The storylines seemed to go a bit slower but it was still enjoyable.

Mary, Mary Quite Contrary

The show opens up with Mary and Gillingham in bed after a week of playing house. Gillingham is smitten and Mary plays along but as soon as he is out of the room Mary’s expression shows that she is only playing the part and her heart is not in it. (Didn’t I say that Tony was not right for her. He was too “nice” and she needed a man like Charles Blake that would challenge her and keep her on her toes. And hopefully, without having  to get her into bed first. But I digress.)

Unfortunately, Violet’s butler, Mr. my-facial-expression-are-priceless Spratt spotted Mary and Gillingham outside the hotel. Being the little rat that he is (okay, maybe that is harsh but I still can’t forgive him for sabotaging Mosley) he told Violet what he saw. Violet’s jaw nearly dropped but with lightning fast speed and she crafted the perfect excuse and feigned shock that Spratt could think anything so undignified and Spratt gave some of his best facial expressions yet. Grandmama saved the day and kicked butler butt at the same time

Now Lady Mary must face the music with Granny. I am glad someone tells Mary that times may have changed but most people would still be shocked at this behavior. I still think it is odd, particularly after how she suffered when her previous fiance found out about Mr. Pamuk. Mary tried to justify her actions but she really only succeeded in looking like a bratty teenager, complete with haughty looks and eye rolls.

And if all of this wasn’t enough, Mary had the gall to ask Anna to take her diaphragm and sex book and hide it in her cottage. Seriously? But then again, she also once asked Anna to help her carry a dead naked man from her bed so maybe that’s not so far fetched.

On a side note, I am assuming the birth control is going to be found in Anna’s room. Will Bates find it? Will he think that is why they haven’t been able to conceive a child? Will this tie back into Green and the rape and somehow make it look like Anna was guilty of… I can’t even finish the sentence. I don’t know. It just seems like more drama is going to come out of that one.

Speaking of Bates,  a witness has come forward and she heard Green say, “Why have you come?” Apparently Green knew that Bates may come after him for what he did to Anna. He made sure everyone would be suspicious of Bates if anything were to happen to him. Bates gave his alibi but technically he still had the opportunity to get to London. (And there was that ticket to London that Mary burned last season.) You know, all I can think about this did-he-didn’t-he storyline, is two song titles –  Let it go and shake it off! It is getting old and I cannot take much more of looking at Anna’s anguished face as she suffers from worry. After all that she has been subjected to, please let her have some happiness!

(Spoiler alert!! If you don’t like sneak peeks of what’s to come, skip this paragraph……… I was getting a photo for this episode and I accidentally saw a photo for an upcoming episode in which  Bates AND Anna needed to prove their innocence. What the what?? This can’t be good for my blood pressure!)

Rose and Her Russians

Here is another example of behavior that seems out of character. What has happened to Rose? Last year she was scandalously involved with a jazz singer and then sneaking around dance clubs disguised as a lady’s maid. Suddenly she is organizing teas for Russian refugees. I don’t begrudge her charity work but it seems like a big leap without much explanation as to why she has had such a change of heart. Am I missing something?

The one good thing about this storyline is that it gave us an opportunity to see Granny speechless when she came face to face with an old Russian friend (flame?) she knew years ago. Mary teased her about it but she insisted there was nothing to it.

Secrets Revealed

Baxter continues to agonize over whether or not she will tell Cora the rest of her story. I wanted to kiss Mosley when he firmly told her that she should tell the truth on her terms since either way, the outcome would be the same. Baxter had courage and shared the story that she allowed a bad man to change who she was and stole for him. In the end she was left to carry the blame but she has learned her lesson. Cora forgave her and let her stay. Baxter looked obviously relieved and overjoyed that the weight was lifted off her shoulders. (Now go give Mosley a kiss of thanks, Baxter.) 😉

It has already been established that lately Robert has been displaying more love and affection to Isis than his wife. Cora expressed her feeling of uselessness, longing again for he days when she was busy and making a difference in the world. At times Robert treats her more like an accessory than a partner in marriage. Meanwhile, Mr. Bricker is more than infatuated with Cora, not only paying her compliments but he genuinely values her opinions. After their evening at the art gallery, Bricker is about to burst with want to kiss Cora but he lets Cora take the lead. Cora is flattered and enjoys the attention but she knows that she cannot step over that line. They are treading on dangerous ground but I am happy they showed some moral restraint. Cora went back inside Rosamond’s home only to find Robert fuming that she was out with Bricker. He speaks cruelly to her and she goes to bed.

It’s interesting that in the previous season when Robert was feeling useless and unloved, he had his fling with the maid. Now it is Cora’s turn to be temped to do the same. Whenever I see these scenarios play out, I am reminded of the importance of couples to nurture their friendship and romantic love. It is so easy to get bogged down by the routine of the day that we forget that our spouse still needs to feel loved and desired and appreciated. It is something you must constantly work out whether you are newlyweds or married 20 years. When that is not available in the marriage it is much more tempting to acquire it elsewhere. Okay, and that is a completely random thought. Did I mention that it is very late and I am feeling a bit punchy for want of sleep. So let’s wrap this up. Who else haven’t we discussed…. Edith!

Oh, Edith. I can’t help but hear The Smith play whenever you are on screen – “Please, please, please, let me,” “How soon is now,” “Heaven knows I’m miserable now…” It could go on and on. I have no idea where this storyline is going. Will she finally tell the truth? Will she kidnap Marigold? What was Robert saying to Edith in the preview about telling the truth? I have no idea. Where do you think the storyline will go?

Okay, let’s stop there. If I forgot something, please add it in the comments!

 

Favorite Quotes

Isobel: “Surely servants are human beings too.”
Violet: “Yes, but preferably only on their days off.”

Mrs. Patmore: “Sympathy butters no parsnips.”

Violet: “An unlucky friend is tiresome enough. An unlucky acquaintance is intolerable.”
Isobel: “You’re all heart.”

Violet: “Can we be confident that there will be no unwanted epilogue.” (I cringe at the thought of a baby being refereed as such , but it is a classic Granny quote.)

Violet: “In my day a lady was incapable of feeling physical attraction until she had been instructed to do so by her mama.”

 

Okay, your turn. Tell me what you think!

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Goals for 2015 & Mini-Goals for January & February

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Last year (in Fall) I sat down and thought about the goals I wanted to set for the next six months. August and September and October saw real progress as I slowly worked on key areas of my life but once the holiday season started, everything went on the back burner. Finally, in mid-January, I am just about recovered from holidays and traveling for a wedding/family reunion. I have chosen my word and saint of 2015 and now it is time for me to revisit my main goals for 2015.

I was reading over my sister’s Goal List and although I divided my goals into categories as she did, I love the way she labeled them – I am a child of God, woman, wife, mother, homemaker. I am hijacking the idea and adding it to my list. (Thanks, sis. 😉 )

Here are my main goals for the year and my mini-goals for January and February.

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I Am A Daughter of God

Main Goal #1: To always have God at the center of my life and to deepen my love for Him. I want his will to be my will and motivation.

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January & February Mini-Goals

Prayer is something I always struggle with. I seem to take two steps forward and three steps back unless I am diligent about not getting lax in my relationship with God. I can see how important it is that I connect with Brian and talk with him and be with him if I want our relationship to grow. I need to remind myself that it is the same thing with God. If I want our relationship to thrive, I have to work on it and not take it for granted. My min-goals:

  • Set clock 20 minutes early to pray after my shower but before I wake up kids.
  • Turn my mind to God through the day, even if only for a brief moment.
  • Turn off the TV and do a little spiritual reading.
  • Monthly confession.

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 I Am A Wife

Main Goal #2: To be a loving and holy wife to Brian and to work at keeping our marriage strong. To do what  can to hep him relax and feel like his home is a haven from the world.

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January & February Mini- Goals

  • Plan weekly date nights with one date a month being out of the house alone.
  • Don’t monopolize the conversation. Ask Brian questions and let him talk without interrupting.
  • When Brian comes home don’t bombard him with the stresses of my day. Greet him with a smile and a kiss and let him relax a little before dinner.
  • Work on the kids’ homework after school so Brian is not left doing it all after dinner.

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 I Am A Mom

Main Goal #3: To be a good mother that loves her kids and spends time with them and is not always “too busy.” I want to teach them about their faith and how to love and serve God in their young lives.

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January & February Mini- Goals

  • Plan bi-weekly outings as a family. The off weeks can be spent playing with them in the backyard searching fossils or blowing bubbles or having a picnic on the deck.
  • Update the kids’ chore chart to give them more responsibility around the house. Go back to the sticker reward charts since they seem to work well.
  • Incorporate 1-2 church feast days into family life.

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I Am A Homemaker

Main Goal #4:  To bring order into our home so I am not stressed out by the mess and chaos. When things are organized our family life runs smoother and there is more peace.

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January & February Mini- Goals

  • Participate in A Bowl Full of Lemon’s Home Organization 101: 14 Week Challenge. I missed Week 1 & 2 so I am jumping in at Week 3 and will make up the other 2 weeks at the end.
  • Make a weekly cleaning schedule for maintenance. For example, the laundry gets insane if I don’t do at least one load every day or so. Fridays are my I’m-not-leaving-the-house days so I’ll plan bigger jobs then.
  • Look through my saved recipes and pull out a few to try each month since the current meal rotation is getting stale.

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UPDATE: I’m actually switching my cleaning challenge. I’ll complete the more intense ABFOL challenge later in spring but for now I am doing the 31 Day to Clean: Having A Martha House the Mary Way hosted by Christian blogger and author Sarah Mae.  God has been putting Mary and Martha into my life left and right! I’ve already started and I must say, it is just what I needed! I’ll blog more about it soon. 🙂

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I Am A Woman

Main Goal #5 – To take care of myself physically, spiritually and mentally so I can be a happy and healthy wife, mother and friend.

© revolution of love blog - goal_jan_15_cI have a bad habit of starting a new book before the previous one is read. I started all these last year but have yet to finish one of them completely! I want to remedy that this year.

January & February Mini- Goals

  • Daily hydrate, take vitamins and walk for 20-30 min. Use my Fitbit to keep track.
  • Lately, God has been opening doors for me to meet (in real life) other local Catholic moms. I will not make excuses and about having to stay home and realize that I also need female companionship. I will work out my schedule to meet up with these moms and make some new friendships.
  • Make sure I have time for a little creativity – whether pulling out the big girl camera or working on a family photo book or spending time writing in my journal.
  • Participate in the Goodreads’ 2015 Reading Challenge. I pledged a book a month, so 12. (Are we friends on Goodreads? If not, find me here.)

It may seem a bit lofty but working on these smaller steps will keep me headed in the right direction.

What about you? What is the one thing that you really want to work on this year?

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Theme of 2015: Be Still

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I looked at the calendar this morning and I couldn’t believe that January was already half way over! It has been incredibly busy with the holidays and then traveling to my brother’s wedding. I barely started taking down all the Christmas decorations yesterday, which was sadly depressing. However, I feel like now I can finally start to focus on the new year.

As I have done for in 2013 and 2014, I have chosen a word/phrase to focus on for the year. Or, rather, I should say that God chose one for me. I had been praying about it and leaning towards a word that would motivate me to work on my house or keep walking to better my health or try something new.

Then at the end of December I received an email newsletter from Lara Casey (I’m using her power sheets) and she said:

I don’t fully know what my goals are for 2015 yet. While the rest of the world rushes to set goals by the stroke of midnight tonight, I offer you an alternative: be still. Let’s do this well, with intention.

The phrase “be still” hit me like a ton of bricks. I knew in my heart that was it. That is what God wanted me to do. Of course, I immediately thought of reasons why that could not be my word. I wanted something else. Anything else. The last thing I wanted to do was keep still.

However, in the course of a couple of days I was seeing the phrase pop up all over the place. For example, I was reading CajunTexasMom’s blog and in her 12 n 1014 post she said:

2014 was the year I decided not to make new year’s resolutions, and instead to select a word that I would focus on for the year. My word was “Quiet.”  I resolved to make quiet time for myself, and to be more mindful of noise in general, both literally and figuratively.

That little voice in my heart said, “That’s what I want you to do. Be still.” I answered, “La, la, la. I can’t hear you.” (Oh, wait, maybe that’s the problem.) 😉

Later I was on my phone browsing Instagram. What did I see on there? A photo that said…

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Seriously, Lord? You are relentless! Okay, my thick head has received the message. I will be still.

revolution of love blog - roadOn Monday, I was driving us home from SoCal and I put on my earbuds and was listening to the podcast This Inspired Life. The podcast is new to me and I have been loving it. I was on Episode 12 with Sr. Faustina sharing her vocation story. I debated whether or not to listen to it since my life was far from the life of a nun but with 400 miles ahead of me, I knew I had nothing to lose.

I am so glad I listened to it because it landed out being like a mini-retreat for me. Sr. Faustina’s story was beautiful. (And she spoke not only about her vocation but touched on the vocation of motherhood in general and relating it to her twin sister, who is married with children.) However, when Sr. Faustina spoke of her vocation she explained that she heard the voice of Jesus in her heart saying, “I want you for myself.” Something happened in me and I heard Jesus say to my heart the same thing. I was so real I had to hold back the tears. As weak and selfish and bratty as I can be, Jesus wants me for himself. He wants me to be still so He can speak to my heart. It baffles me.

Being still or quieting myself to pray is not something that is easy for me. There is always noise around me and not just with the kids. Even when I am alone, I will have the TV on or the radio playing. I don’t like silence. God has slowly been pulling me out of that but now He wants me to step up my game. He is emphasizing my need to be still and quiet my heart.

st_marthaI can’t help but think about Mary and Martha. I am definitely a Martha. Every time I read that Gospel story I have to fight the urge to get mad at Mary for being so lazy and get upset with Jesus for reprimanding Martha. Oh, sure. it sounds all good for Martha to sit around but eventually everyone will get hungry and wonder why there is nothing prepared to eat! 😉

Okay, okay. I actually do understand what Jesus means and what He is trying to teach Martha. But knowing it and actually living it out are two different things. That is why I have adopted St. Martha as my patron saint for 2015. Together we will learn the better portion. 🙂

How about you? Did you pick a word for the year or make a resolution? Share it with me. 🙂

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TV Talk: Downton Abbey, Season 5, Episode 2 Recap

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I was out of town this weekend but was able to catch the latest episode of Downton Abbey at the hotel. However, the recap is a day late. Sorry!

Secrets

The show opened with Anna and Mrs. Hughes discovering the photo of baby Marigold that Edith hid under her pillow. Anna is a woman of discreetness (she’s getting a lot of practice from Lady Mary lately) and the look on Mrs. Hughes’ face showed that she is putting two and two together, especially after she overheard Edith and Drewe talking after the fire.

I am waiting for Mrs. Drewe to put two and two together. Her annoyance with Edith is growing and her anger towards her husband is understandable. I’d be having a “lively chat” with my husband if he was trying to pawn off the child I had adopted into my heart. I think there will have to be some confessions made from Drewe if he doesn’t want to damage his marriage. Whether or not Mrs. Drewe would keep quiet if she found out, or be spiteful, I don’t know. Worst case scenario, she realizes the baby is Edith’s but thinks Drewe is the father.

Meanwhile, the other keeper of secrets is Anna. I wanted to hug the poor girl when Mary kept telling her she wanted to avoid the consequences and Anna exclaimed OMG when she realized what she was being asked. Anna manages to procure Mary’s requested item and Mary ventured out on her “sketching holiday.”

On the downstairs front, Jimmy made his goodbyes and left Downton. There was a sweet exchange between him and Thomas. (And later between Anna and Thomas.) I like that Thomas is not shown as a 100% villain. I enjoy when the veil is lifted and we get a glimpse into the vulnerable and hurting man inside. My heart goes out to Thomas at these moments. However, these glimpses do not last long. Thomas was back to his nastiness as he sought his revenge on Baxter by spoiling the good opinion of the man who cared for her most.

I felt for Mosley as he struggled with the revelation of Baxter’s past and her refusal to justify her actions. She does admit that she may not have acted on her own but she’d say no more. Although, I wish she’d come clean, I admire Baxter for accepting the responsibility and the consequences of her actions. You can see how much it pained her to relive that moment of her history and the shame she felt because of it. Her confession to Cora has seemed to give her an inner strength she did not have when she was cowering under Thomas’ gaze. I do hope things work out well for her (and Mosley) in the end.

Sex vs Love

A new character is introduced tonight, an art historian by the name of Simon Bricker. (A familiar face to the lover of period movies.) It seems that things are being set up for Cora to have a romantic brush with Bricker. In turn, Robert spent most of the show upset about something. (Huh. I said that as if it was unusual.) He is correct to suspect Bricker’s intentions, even though he seems more concerned about his dog Isis than his wife. (I couldn’t stop laughing at that.)

Charles Blake is back and he is not pleased with Lady Mary. He does not hide his displeasure, although he does wish Mary happiness. Her exchange with Charles shook Mary’s confidence a bit. I find ill logic in her thinking that having sex with a man she thinks he might love will help her avoid divorce. If anything, the opposite is true, but as I mentioned before, that is a topic for another post.

Despite her temporary misgivings, Mary secured her hotel room, which was adjoined with Gillingham’s room. Moments later, he knocked on her door looking as dashing as ever. They share seductive banter with one another with lines like, “We’ll make love all night, and in fact, for as long as either of us has any stamina left.” Wait, wait… is this Lord Gillingham from Downton Abbey or Rico Suave from a telenovela? It’s getting hard to tell. (Insert eye roll.)

For me, part of the charm of Downton Abbey, and period movies in general, is the subtlety of attraction and the slow simmer that a glance or a smile can produce. The touching of a hand and eventually a tender kiss can send a heart fluttering and wanting more. I find that more enticing to watch than what actually goes on in the bedroom. I am a big fan of a healthy sex life but that should be left to a husband and his blushing wife. (Or vice versa.) 😉 I don’t want (or need) to see in on screen. But that’s just my opinion. I don’t begrudge you yours. 🙂

Case in point, I love the sweet dialogue between Carson and Mrs. Hughes about the location of the memorial.

Carson: “There’s a bonus. It puts us back in agreement, Mrs. Hughes. I am not comfortable when you and I are not in agreement.”
Mrs. Hughes: “You are very flattering. When you talk like that, you make me want tot check the looking glass to see that my hair is tidy.”
Carson: “Get away with you.”
Mrs. Hughes: “No, I mean it.”

That little dialogue and the looks shared between them was swoon worthy and for stodgy Mr. Carson, it was the strongest testament of affections we’ve seen from him so far.

In the closing scene, a policeman came to talk to Mr. Carson about Mr. Green. (Anna’s rapist.) Apparently there was a witness, which means that Mr. Bates and Anna’s relationship will be raked over the coals once again. Dun, dun, dun… Just please, let Mr. Bates be innocent. (No, it’s not preposterous to think Greene bent down to tie his shoe and then he accidentally fell into the path of a moving vehicle.)  Well, at least do not make us endure another dragged out Bates-is-in-prison storyline. Okay, thanks.

 

Favorite Quotes

— Violet: “Mrs. Crawley has been distracted lately with Lord Merton frisking around her skirts and getting in the way.”

— Robert: “Do people think we are some sort of hotel that never presents a bill.”

— Mrs. Hughes: “That’s a nice thing you are doing.”
— Mrs. Patmore: “Is it? I think I’ve been a damned fool and doubled my workload.”

— Robert: (Speaking of the wireless) “It is a fad. It won’t last.”

— Violet: “Mrs. Crawley is never happier than when she has the chance to use her guiding hand.” (The only thing better than Violet’s lines were the looks Isobel was giving Violet in return for her barbs.)

— Bates (Discussing Lady Mary’s trip.): “It doesn’t sound much like Lady Mary. It sounds a bit bohemian.”

— Lady Mary: “Charles, I am sorry if I’ve hurt you. It is just only lately that I’ve started to come out of the midst.”
— Charles: “And the midst is clearing around the lithe and supple figure of Tony Gillingham.”

— Cora: “She was a German Communist who was shot and thrown in the canal. We wouldn’t wish that on Miss Bunting.”
— Robert: (Considering the thought.) “Hmmm.”

— Mr. Bricker: “Goodness. Is this what they call a lively exchange of views.”
— Mary: “It’s about now that Papa usually fetches his gun.”

— Carson: “I don’t like it when we are not on the same side.”
— Mrs: Hughes: “We’re different people, Mr. Carson. We can’t always agree.
— Carson: “I know. But I don’t like it.”

— Mary – “You are not being fair. I am not some over-heated housemaid drooling over a photograph of Douglas Fairbanks.”

–Robert: “And tell your friend Bricker to stop flirting with Isis. There is nothing more ill-bred than trying to steal the affections of someone else’s dog!”

— Daisy: “Why is it called a wireless when there are so many wires?”

Random Thoughts

— Like Thomas, there are moments when Miss Bunting is not aggravating me and I was touched that she was determined to help Daisy with her studies. If she can channel a little more of her charitable heart and tone down her abrasive rudeness, I’d enjoy her character much more.

— Brian thinks that Charles Blake knows something about Gillingham that he is not telling Mary. I’m not sure.

— I thought is was so unkind of Robert to say about Edith that he hopes that Drewes don’t get sick of her. (As if he is a bed of roses.)

— I’m looking forward to learning more about Rose’s Russian refugees. One of them is going to have a past with Violet. Hmmm. Do tell!

Okay, now it’s your turn! Share with me your thoughts, comments and predictions! 🙂

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